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♔ Tuesday, March 15, 2011
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Story Of My Life...
Everyday i keep thinking whether i will forget you in my life? For sure i have lost many friend this year and i make ton of enemy.Sometime i wish i can be invisible or be a spirit to see whether people will be sad without me or they will be happy?
I don’t know what going to happen in my life because it is complicated and everyday is a challenge for me to go through.I have many dream for the future but will i succeed?Will i still be alive tomorrow to continue my dream and life journey?Only Allah know everything and i hope i will get guidance from Allah.
People come and go but they never leave your heart ya that a perfect phrase for my situation now.Sometime i miss someone so much but sometime i wish i can be alone.I miss all my friend and i wish thing can go back like it used to be but i don’t have time machine to travel back to the past how i wish i have it.I miss the person that i used to call friend but i realise people change from good to worst.Yea my friend change alot from my friend to my nemesis before this they are so nice to me but now all they think about competition and how to win the competition and they forget all about me i feel so neglected.
There are still a few friend that are good to me but they sometime piss me off!I don’t message you to be hurted i message you because i miss you but you make me feel like rubbish.When i meet you in real life,your face look angry,bored when you talk to me.I feel so depress and sad.So i decide before i hurt other feeling i should back off and forget all the person that i used to call friend.Yea maybe they are more happy without me.
Sometime tear accompany me when i feel alone,empty & sad they are like my bestfriend now.I can’t control my emotion right now because sometime i will suddenly feeling down and sad all sudden sometime i will laugh like crazy or mad i don’t know maybe because i am crazy yay!I wish one day i will meet a true friend that will be with me when im having easy time or rough time.Not a friend that will joke around with my problem or ignore me.
To all the person that i used to call friend:
When i’m mad leave me because that time my real personality show up, If i don’t talk to you forget me because i don’t deserve your friendship, If i start to change, start a new life and forget that i ever exist, If i die don’t cry for me because i don’t deserve your tear and sympathy. Move on and continue your life...
Sincerely, your so called friend J
